Much Obliged

When I started this, I made a deal with myself that I would write at least one blog entry a month.  Here it is, 9 pm on the 31st and the only reason I am doing this is because I feel obligated due solely to my desire to not miss a month (which I have never done).  I notice when I am feeling more anxious, which I am right now, I do not feel like writing, I do not want to talk to my mom on the phone, I reluctantly go to therapy.  A couple of weeks ago, I decided to go back on an antidepressant/anxiety medication after years of being off it. It was not an easy decision, but I could feel my anxiety spiraling out of control.  So far, it does not really seem to be helping much.  I know I have to be patient and give it some time and then adjust the dose, etc., but I am anxious about being anxious and feel depressed about being depressed and then I get upset about being upset. It is frustrating because I do not really know what exacerbated it, but I suppose it doesn’t really matter because I need to focus on ways to move forward.  I just really feel like no one understands and it is hard not to feel isolated and alone, which makes me feel even worse.

4 comments on “Much Obliged

  1. El Guapo says:

    With a blog, you have a non-judgemental community who is supportive and listens really well.
    I know when I force myself to write, sometimes just getting it out helps.
    And if someone says Yeah, I get that, it helps even more.

    Yeah, I get that.

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    • Do Nothing Daughter says:

      Thanks so much for your comment and encouragement. I think sometimes I resist bc it forces me to confront what is really bothering me. But you are very right that I usually feel better after writing! Thanks for “getting it”.


  2. judyjourneys says:

    Thanks for keeping in touch with us. I often think of you and wonder how you are doing.

    Liked by 1 person

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