My sister is pregnant and is due in about a month. It is really exciting, but also sort of hard to believe that in a few weeks, there will be a little baby girl in our family. I am so happy to become an aunt and I can’t wait to meet my niece, but it has been a difficult pregnancy for her. She has been very sick throughout almost all of it and it has been hard to see her suffer so much. She has had a few complications that could result in the baby arriving earlier than expected and I think it is really hitting her- and me- how much things are going to change.
Even though this isn’t happening to me, I am very close with my sister, so it is having a big effect on my life. We live a couple of miles apart and talk several times a day. My anxiety has been peaked for a few different reasons lately, but I think her having the baby is part of it, because it is such a big change…and I am not a fan of change! For most of our lives, it has always been the two of us. Yes, we have had our individual friends and our boyfriends and we are both super close to our mother, but we have a uniquely special relationship. I think because we really had to stick together when we grew up and lived with our dad, that we survived by having each other. I cannot imagine going through the experiences of my dysfunctional family as an only child. She is three and a half years younger than me and I was always very protective of her. I guess it still a little hard to wrap my head around the fact that my little sister is about to become a mother!!
Anxious ACOA 